Since the night before, the air had been deadly still and sweltering. Everybody prepared for the wind and rain that was about to lash down any moment. Fortunately, professor Ha Dai Cong’s children had all returned in time for his funeral.
Hoang Thu Thao leaned back on an armchair with her arms spread and resting on the arm pads. Her two hands knitted against each other across a belly which was as big as a pregnant woman’s. Her head bent down on her fat neck, her eyes closed slightly, as if she was dozing. For several days straight, she had been sitting in this posture, making no movements even if somebody came to inquire after her. She was waiting for the moment when her beloved husband would leave her forever.
It was about 10pm on the 10th of lunar July when the storm was approaching with zigzag lightening, roaring thunder and pouring rain. The rain fell down in torrents, as if to separate and isolate human beings on their own lonely islands. Doctor Ha, who had warned Thao a few days before that Cong’s life was slipping away, shook his head at her.
“For decades working in this profession, I’ve never seen anyone so resilient. Are all of his children here? Is he still waiting for somebody else?” the doctor asked.
Thao opened her eyes. It took her a while to understand what the doctor had said. She shook her head and answered:
“Look. His daughters, sons-in-law and grandchildren are all here. There isn’t anybody else.”
“What about his adopted son? Cong seems to like him very much. Why haven’t I seen him since Cong fell ill?”
Thao looked at her husband then the doctor. Was it true that her husband was waiting for his adopted son? Nonsense. When she was still wondering how to answer the doctor’s question, the gate bell suddenly rang, repeatedly. The person who kept pressing the bell seemed to be afraid that the people inside were sleeping or the sounds of rain and winds were drowning out the ringing. The bell ringing made Thao’s children and grandchildren rush out into the yard. Who was coming in this stormy weather? Thao was racking her brain when one of her sons-in-law walked out with an umbrella to open the gate. In a few instants he returned with the adopted son. The woman stood transfixed.
“How did you know?” Thao spoke at last.
“Last night I had a nightmare,” Bui, the adopted son, answered. “I’d never experienced such a dream before. So this morning when I woke up I drew some lots for you two and found that my father would leave this world at the Hour of Pig today.”
Everybody looked at Bui with wide eyes, wondering what he was talking about. Cong suddenly stirred and opened his eyes slightly to look at his adopted son. He craned his neck in one last move then heaved his final breath. The family howled in pain. The crying of his wife, children and grandchildren mingled with the loud raging storm which was gathering force outside.
* * *
Over 60 years in marriage, Thao had always taken good care of her husband and children. Residents in the neighbourhood considered her an ideal model of a wife and mother. As a rural girl who went to Hanoi to study, she met and married Cong who was a generation older than her. He had a prestigious teaching job and a 24-sqm apartment on the third floor of the Thanh Xuan Bac collective quarter. After her graduation, he helped her get a job working for the university lab. Thao had hoped that marrying a college professor would give her a comfortable life. However, after they had kids, life got tough. Both of their salaries weren’t enough to accommodate their expenses. Thao decided to quit her job to engage in trade to make a better life for her husband and children. While she ran around selling one thing or another, her husband, besides carefreely going to his lecture everyday, could only sit and reminisce about his old days of comfort when he was born with a silver spoon in his mouth into a well-known land owner family in a mountainous region.
Like many people lucky enough to get an education in those years when the whole country had to invest all of its resources to fight wars, both Thao and her husband cynically believed human beings were only advanced animals. When people die, “dust will return to dust,” as the saying goes. So the ancestor worshipping altar in Thao’s house was only used on death anniversaries and lunar New Year holidays as a point of duty. Yet, desperation drove Thao to seek spiritual salvation. Without telling her husband, she listened to a friend’s advice and conducted a ceremony to conjure up her father-in-law’s ghost. The old man’s ghost showed up and told her that for many years, he had been wandering without a home and subsisting on sips of porridge that people cooked for the dead in the month of wandering ghosts. The old man told his children to go to Trinh Khuc village, find the house where he used to live and ask the house owner for further help. Skeptical, Thao asked her husband. Professor Ha Dai Cong recalled that in 1947, after his mother died, his father secretly sent his children to join the French resistance then escaped to a “safe zone” under the Viet Minh’s control. Yet on his way there, he was killed by a bomb. Ever since then, Cong and his siblings hadn’t found out the exact location where their father died. They planned to search for his grave some day when their life improved. Though she remained in doubt, Thao sold her wedding ring, the only valuable property the couple still had, to take a trip to her husband’s home village. Though she hadn’t visited it for a long time, she still remembered the way back to the place where her husband was born without asking him. While waiting on the porch, Cong told Thao that the house had been rebuilt, but the old rainwater tank remained. Cong walked to the tank, scooped up some rainwater and gulped it down at one go. Right then the house owner returned. The man looked benign, earthy, and unbelievably honest. “Are you Ha Dai Cong, the oldest son of Mr. Ha Dai Vu?” the man asked straightforwardly. The coupled stood dumstruck eyeing him. “Yes! I am. But how do you know?” Cong said. The man looked at the couple with both trust and caution. “My name is Cong,” he said. “Do you have your ID card with you?” After another moment of astonishment, Cong took out his ID card and gave it to Cong. “Please excuse me,” Cong said. “Because of an important issue, I had to first verify that you are really Ha Dai Cong.” Cong then opened the door to invite the couple in. After offering them water to drink, he walked into the room in the left. After a while, he returned with a bamboo pipe with a top closed tightly with a cork made of dry banana leaves. Cong said that before passing away, his own father had asked him to personally hand the bamboo pipe to Cong one day. Then he hastily ran out to fetch his wife and kids to cook a chicken feast to welcome their guests. While Cong was out, the couple opened the bamboo pipe. Inside, there was a will written by Ha Dai Vu informing his oldest son of a glazed terra-cotta jar buried in the orchard which contained all the gold and silver that he had saved in his lifetime. The will showed where the jar was buried, and instructed his son to divide the money into five parts. One part was reserved for the house owner, the remaining amount belonged to his four children. Completely surprised, Cong and his wife didn’t know what to do. They immediately excused themselves and returned to Hanoi to discuss the issue in private. At first, Ha Dai Cong was determined to execute his father’s will but Hoang Thu Thao protested. She said the money might not be much, so if it was divided into five parts, they would have little left. The couple quarreled and Thao threatened divorce so Cong had to back down. After forcing her husband to her side, Thao was at loss about how to dig up the gold jar in Cong’s orchard. Though she didn’t want to, Hoang Thu Thao at last had to acquiesce to her husband’s request to return to Trinh Khuc Village to announce the will to Cong so that they could unearth the jar. They offered Cong one fifth of the money as dictated by Ha Dai Vu’s will. Yet, Cong turned it down, explaining, “This is the result of your parents’ sweat so I can’t accept it. I only want to hold a small ceremony to tell my father that I’ve executed his death wish faithfully.”
Surprised and confused by what was happening, Thao asked her husband who Cong’s father was and was told that the old man had been a Confucian scholar and fortune-teller. When her father-in-law Ha Dai Vu was still the chief of the village, one day a fortune-teller passed by his house. The village chief invited the fortune-teller in to draw a lot for him. The fortune-teller predicted that despite his wealth and large family, the village chief would see his family torn apart and he would suffer death on the streets. The village chief instantly lost his temper and ordered his men to arrest the fortune-teller for a beating. However, he later calmed down and forgave the man. He even asked the man to stay in his house and work as a teacher for his children. That fortune-teller was Cong’s father.
So Thao had a significant amount of money for her investment. The first thing she did was buy nearly 500sqm of land to build a grocery store. Just as people say, “in business, capital is more important than talent” indeed. Her store quickly yielded profits, and the more money she made, the freer she was to charge high prices. After money, she aimed for prestige because the two go together. She decided to send both her husband and two daughters abroad for further study. Everything went well except that the richer her family became, the colder their relationship with her husband’s siblings grew. Aunts Phu and Sang and uncle Vuong used to visit them every day. Her husband’s sisters and brother, who had received a classical education, had supported each other through all those difficult years. They had shared everything from a loaf of bread to a Truong Son medicated oil bottle. Yet, everything changed now, each family held their own death anniversaries for their parents. Then one day out of the blue, uncle Vuong called for a family gathering in which he and his two sisters interrogated Cong and his wife about the money that their father had left behind. Thao denied everything, her husband kept his mouth shut and his head down, not daring to look into his siblings’ eyes. After that Cong became a different person. Every time he saw his sisters and brother, he walked the other way. His siblings didn’t want to see him either. Once when his older sister Phu fell ill, Cong brought a bag of gifts to visit her but her son walked out, looked at him as if he were a stranger and refused to invite him in. After that, Cong became depressed. Whenever he went home from work, he sat in silence staring at his ancestors’ altar, which hurt Thao deeply. Hoang Thu Thao knew that besides the cold relations with his siblings, Cong also felt sad about not having a son to pass down his lineage. That was why she yielded to his wish and took the trouble to return to Trinh Khuc village to offer to adopt Cong’s younger son Bui as their own. If only Bui were a vulgar country pumpkin. Thao would give him some money, build a house for him in his home village and that would be the end of it. However, like his paternal grandfather, Bui loved studying and ignored material things. So just like with her precious daughters, Thao had to fund his doctorate education. Bui acquired a PhD in philosophy and became a college lecturer. The problem was that while Thao and her daughters threw themselves into making and worshipping money, Bui was indifferent and always declared, “money is irrelevant.” Thus Thao disliked this adopted son, while the professor loved and took pride in him. Cong asked his wife to invest more in Bui but she refused. Even his flesh and blood turned out to be nothing, let alone water, she thought inside. Though Thao didn’t say so to her husband’s face, she tightened the budget and left him no chance to take care of Bui. Yet when he fell ill, Cong wrote a will which left a large amount to his adopted son. He even divided the 500sqm lot into four equal parts for his wife and all of his three children. What choked Thao up in anger was that for years living with Cong, she was the one who had single-handedly taken care of the family, yet he had secretly saved a considerable amount for Bui. In his will, Cong asked Bui to use the money to build a house to live in and tend to his adopted parents’ altar when they died.
The will gave Thao many sleepless nights. She would be driven insane if such a huge property fell into the adopted son’s hands. That was why despite her husband’s entreaties, she didn’t tell Bui about his serious illness. Yet, the adopted son managed to find his way through the rain and storm to return home right at his father’s dying moment. Luckily for Thao, no sooner did Cong see Bui than he passed away, without having the time to tell his son anything about the will.
When her children and grandchildren were preparing for the funeral, the widow again walked up to her bedroom on the second floor. She scoured her documents and notebooks, drawer and bed in search of her husband’s will. She remembered hiding it away carefully in some place that only she knew. Just like a lonely man hiding his money away in his shoes or a woman, in her cupboard. However smart, thieves often don’t suspect those places. But Thao searched her bedroom in vain. As the mourning ceremony was about to start and she was nowhere in sight, her daughters and adopted son went up to her room. Seeing her dazed face, the adopted son asked:
“Are you looking for dad’s will, mum?”
“No!” she shrieked while shaking her head insistently. “There isn’t any will. He didn’t leave any will.”
“He did,” Bui affirmed, “It’s where you left it. But you won’t find it today. You’ll have to wait until dad’s 49-day death anniversary to see it.”
Thao and her two daughters looked at Bui aghast. Nobody believed a word he said but it was true; Thao couldn’t find her husband’s will.
“Please go down now mum. It’s time to start the mourning ceremony,” Bui said.
Without any other option, Thao had to forget her husband’s will for the moment in order to get through the funeral.
After the funeral, the adopted son carefully arranged wreaths and tidied up professor Ha Dai Cong’s tomb, respectfully burned three incense sticks and stood for a while before leaving. He didn’t ask anything about the dead man’s will or wishes.
*
49 days passed since professor Ha Dai Cong died. Though she had tried her utmost, the widow Thao still couldn’t find her husband’s will. She worried herself sick. Every night she saw Cong in her dream talking about his adopted son just like when he was alive. He wanted his wife to help Bui with him. And just like in the old days, in her dreams Thao still controlled the budget resolutely and didn’t give her husband a chance to do what he wanted.
Exactly on the 49th day after his father died, Bui phoned his mother. He apologised for being too busy to return home to burn incense for his father’s death anniversary. Bui asked if his mother had found the will. Again, Thao insisted that her husband didn’t leave any will. Bui said, “Dad did leave a will and I know what he wrote. But I was an undutiful son to him because I didn’t take care of him even for one day when he fell ill, so I don’t deserve what he left me. I turn down his offer.” At that moment, Thao felt like choking. With much effort she asked, “Okay. So where is the will now?” Bui sounded surprised at her question. “How would I know?” he asked. “But wherever you left it, it’s still there. You’ll find it shortly.” Thao shouted at the phone, “You’re nuts!” Then angrily she flung away the phone as well as several phonebooks on the table. They dropped on the floor. And look, right there from an old phone book, Cong’s will fell out. In disbelief Thao pounced upon her husband’s dammed will. She took it downstairs where her children and grandchildren were burning incense on his altar.
Taking in a deep breath, the widow bowed down three times before her husband’s altar with the will in her hands. Then she raised the will near the candle fire. Her hands shook. As the will started to catch fire, with consternation she saw Cong’s eyes on the altar photo look as if they were burning too. The incense bowl burst into flames. Thao’s mind swirled. She dropped the will and banged her head against the edge of the altar. She fainted.
*
Thao’s grocery store at Phat Dat market closed down. After she banged her head against her husband’s altar on his 49thdeath anniversary, Thao suffered a stroke and had to be hospitalised. The doctors said that she would live in a vegetative stage for the rest of her life. Her daughters ran around pagodas praying for her without success before they thought about Bui. Hearing the news, Bui visited his adopted mother. Bui told his sisters, “Mum’s blood pressure has always been unstable. Perhaps after dad died, she grieved so much that she suffered a stroke. Her illness isn’t related to the dead, so don’t waste your time praying anymore.” Then Bui sighed and said, “I’ve drawn a lot for mom and it said that she would live to more than 100 years of age. Is this how she will live the rest of her life?”
